- my job,
- the mommy blues,
- my apartment
- my hiking business
- my ex..
I work long hours, but luckily not laborous.
I have plans on how I want my future to be, and after feeling what love is
like and can be, I feel kinda lonely lately. I'm very into living my life, my way
without the influences of other. But I cant help but to glance back at that distant
window of that possible "fairytale" future that brought a smile to my face.
For the first time in my life, I understood and felt the excitement of what it
means to live the life of Pleasantville.
Dont get me wrong I'm not that naive,
but I've never saw anything positive about having children, buying a house
or even getting married. It all seemed like Bollix Bullshit. In less than 3 mnths
the window was shut and the curtains was closed, and for while, as I looked back
on my previous existence everything seemed so bleak and hollow. Now I'm trying to decorate
that little hollow space with my own sad versions of that fairytale sight.
How do things change so quickly?
I guess its true what they say "You're born alone, so live alone, then die alone"
I hope it isnt true. I feel like I do alot of hoping. ........ .
LoL if worst comes to worst maybe I'll have a baby with my bestfriend, LMAO!!!
WOW THAT WAS GAY!
My apartment does not get an acceptable amount of sunlight in the living room, and it makes
me so annoyed and I dont wanna go in there cuz I feel depressed. I think a studio apt will be fine for me. I'm thinking about moving, but I'm not going to tell many people.
I'm trying to get my hiking business underway, but unfortunately I must depend on
other people for help and they dont take it as seriously as I do (obviously)....