Thursday, February 26, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
I think my job completely hates Fridays and will try their best to make it as shitty as possible.
As much as I look forward to Fridays, at the same time I wonder what shit Imma have to go through today in order to get to my fuckin weekend. I SWEAR I DO NOT OVER EXAGGERATE. EVERY FUCKIN FRIDAY.
So, I was asked by the bosses assistant to put some business cards in alphabetical order, little did I know that there was at least 300 cards in that bitch, easily could've been more. So that heated me up, but I was like you know what, I have nothing to do Fuck It. Finally three days later I get done, and she comes up to me and says
"Oh, you gotta do these over."
I'm like "Why"
She says "Because these business cards are suppose to be in alphabetical order by last name not comapany."
Me: "Are you kidding me...."
She says : "Sorry you gotta do them over."
I am soo upset, I'm not touching those fuckin cards til I calm down because I will burn them..
So I just had my 3 month evaluation, which was a joke.
I asked her why she didnt tell me to do that way, and she was like I like them that way, and thats how it should be done.
That didnt even answer my question, but ok... I am so tired of her mood swings, and I refuse to deal with them or be friendly with her anymore. I think she is Uber phony.. lol Uber.
She said how I rolled my eyes and gave her an attitude about the cards thing. I'm like yeah I was annoyed. And I was told to apologize by my other boss, so I did and she was like Well I'm not apologizing.
I'm like Wow ok... Its high school all over again but worst cause I cant ignore anyone, I need this job to pay my rent. Woosah.......
this is how i feel : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ggpq5mRdxaY
They want me to be more enthusiastic about the work they give me...
I dont understand why jobs like this exist....
Corporations and cooperate people just DO NOT MIX with me.. its as simple as that, and I will do this shit for as long as I need to.
Oh and to add insult to injury The Sims 3 was suppose to come out today and it is being delayed to June 2nd. I think the only solace I have is Kim Harrisons book coming out in 4 days. Hopefully it wont be on a Friday by some horrible calendar tragedy.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
I am known as a "free spirited""feminist hippie" (quoted by those
dearest to me) and my so called labels deemed me this for the simple
fact that, in May I am planning to not only quit my job but risk my
not-so-great-situation apartment. The reason I am doing this besides the
fact that I dislike all of the above, is because I want to go hiking and
be stress free for awhile that bad.
My plan does not sound like the smartest but I assure you it works out
because it makes sense to me. I find that's my Karma or Lifestyle that
works well particularly for me.
Im planning on becoming a Correctional Officer. The class for me starts
in July if it doesn't get cancelled because of the NYC freeze. I am
hoping that my tax return will at least be big enough to hold me til
july. If not, I will move out and live with my sperm donor in virginia.
As much as I dislike the idea, it makes sense. It will give me time to
wait out corrections.
I really wanna get a new place mostly because waiting for a new roomate
sucks and keeps me on edge plus I eventually want 2 get 2 cats or 2
dogs. Im fighting for a cat right now.. Its killin me cuz I badly need
something to nurture.
Maybe havin a dog or cat will take away this nurturing feeling. Ggrrr!!
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Tuesday, February 17, 2009
person we meet has a certain place in that puzzle. Whether it be the
person who trains us for work, or the girl you have a one night stand
with in the Starbucks bathroom. Everyone has their place. Sometimes our
personal puzzles change forcing others to leave or rearrange themselves.
For ex: a friend that becomes a girlfriend, her puzzle piece becomes
bigger, more dominant and it forces the most insignificant pieces like
those random booty calls that mightve once been there no longer has a
place in the new puzzle.
Some of us want so bad to fit into other personal puzzles. Some of us on
the other hand couldn't really give two shits.
My puzzle has always been a bit complicated but I try to find a place fo
everyone if I can. There's only a few puzzles that I want to truly have
a place in and out of all of them, there's only 1 puzzle that I don't
seem to have a place.
** sigh **
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Monday, February 16, 2009
I think I've gone out of my way for the 3 L's just a little too much. And knowing this, still hasnt change the fact that I still do it til this very day. Gosh it bothers me soo much how out of my way I will go.
Sometimes I wanna say "Fuck it" and forget about the whole thing. I mean when it comes down to it, who really gives a fuck at he end of the day whether I went that extra mile, or mentioned to "you" how you make me feel. Only me.
I am so exhausted of feeling like I'm the only one willing to go more then a mile, but a plane trip away for the ONE sweet person. Maybe I'm my one sweet person.
AM I just being selfish? I know that everyone has their life, future and past to deal with. But it always seems like people are just Dealing instead of just living.
Everyone in my life is Dealing, except my mother, and maybe thats why I have been gravitating towards her recently. A breath of fresh air from someone who has life problems but doesnt let it make up what their life is about. I like that alot. I hope never to end up Dealing with life.
I vow to get out more and meet some new people.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Friday, February 6, 2009
- my job,
- the mommy blues,
- my apartment
- my hiking business
- my ex..
I work long hours, but luckily not laborous.
I have plans on how I want my future to be, and after feeling what love is
like and can be, I feel kinda lonely lately. I'm very into living my life, my way
without the influences of other. But I cant help but to glance back at that distant
window of that possible "fairytale" future that brought a smile to my face.
For the first time in my life, I understood and felt the excitement of what it
means to live the life of Pleasantville.
Dont get me wrong I'm not that naive,
but I've never saw anything positive about having children, buying a house
or even getting married. It all seemed like Bollix Bullshit. In less than 3 mnths
the window was shut and the curtains was closed, and for while, as I looked back
on my previous existence everything seemed so bleak and hollow. Now I'm trying to decorate
that little hollow space with my own sad versions of that fairytale sight.
How do things change so quickly?
I guess its true what they say "You're born alone, so live alone, then die alone"
I hope it isnt true. I feel like I do alot of hoping. ........ .
LoL if worst comes to worst maybe I'll have a baby with my bestfriend, LMAO!!!
WOW THAT WAS GAY!
My apartment does not get an acceptable amount of sunlight in the living room, and it makes
me so annoyed and I dont wanna go in there cuz I feel depressed. I think a studio apt will be fine for me. I'm thinking about moving, but I'm not going to tell many people.
I'm trying to get my hiking business underway, but unfortunately I must depend on
other people for help and they dont take it as seriously as I do (obviously)....
Tuesday, February 3, 2009